I have been coming to work late these past few days. Don't snicker now because you'd think I'm always late anyway but please eh... My lateness is so melampaui batas nowadays cheyleh haha... On Tuesday, I reached work at 11a.m. On Wednesday, I reached at 10.30a.m. Macam aku ada share jer kat company ni. I blame my cramps for my tardiness. It was the mother of all cramps, I tell ya.

On Tuesday, I planned to meet Eli after work for dinner. On the way there in the train, I had a really bad cramp. I broke up in cold sweat, my knees started to buckle from the pain of the tummy and my temperature rose. I thought I was going to faint. And at that improper nanosecond, I wondered if I was wearing some nice panty because I had a vision that if I faint, they'd probably have to send me to a hospital and I'd be embarrassed if I'm wearing some unpretty panty haha... Sempat.

I sms-ed Eli telling her I'm gonna faint. She called me immediately and asked where I was, in an urgent tone. I think she's scared that I'd faint before I could tell her where I was. These monthly cramps are scaring me. I'm afraid it could be some tumour growth or something, that's causing the pain. I guess I can always go check but I'm sucha chicken. Maybe I should resume consuming Evening Primrose Oil. But I hate relying on things to feel better, to feel whole. Just like how I hate relying on someone to feel better. Like, I'll kick myself for not being good enough to be my own antidote. Pfft. Sucks lah, understand or not. Sucks.

Vernetta Lopez said that Nicole Kidman is getting married to some country singer. Everyone's getting married. Getting married or getting engaged. Speaking of engagement, HAPPY ENGAGEMENT SUSHI!! You looked gorgeous. Loves the dress :)

Yeah as I was saying, everyone's getting married or engaged. My parents got like, ten thousand wedding invitations this month alone lah. If they're not getting married or getting engaged, they're happily attached with someone. Haha... Why am I complaining... Single is good. Being single means you can do your own thing without feeling guilty you're betraying the other half. I'm like, part of a pair of Siamese twins who just got separated. I feel incapacitated without the other.

I forgot how it's like to feel important for someone.