This is for my lovelies. My pillars of strength. The Washington Apples. The Crescentians.

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Eli is my Queen. My lesbian partner. Hurhur... I am so glad that she has grown to be oh-so-pretty. I've learnt more things about her in the last 3 years than I had in the 4 years in secondary school. Fair-skinned and skinny, it is not a surprise some girls are envious of her. Tapi please eh, she's not a bimbo. She's smart and if there is EVER a song title or artist I need to know about, I'll call her. (In fact, come to think of it, we're ALL smart. The conventional kinda smart AND the erm, the non-conventional kind). She may seem all quiet at times but trust me, it's not because she's stoning. I think she's thinking. Is it, Eli? Eli is ultra-sensitive when faced with all things concerning the heart. I hate to see her heart broken. But you know what, luv? You always have us and your nieces and your nephews. Now THAT, is priceless.

(Dont' forget me when you're up there soaring the skies. Because I heart you, ok slut!)

I'd say to all the guys who has hurt her feelings, your loss. Really. And if Eli does not want to go out with you, just leave her alone. She knows what is best for herself. And if she doesn't, I do.

My other Queen. Yes, kita memang feeling-feeling royalty. Jila is a basket case gone really wrong. Ask Richard. But despite all that, we love her still the same. Jila was one of the first few people I met in Seconday One. In fact, I saw her in school when we both were buying our school books - she was accompanied by her mum and Ija and I was accompanied by my dad. And believe me you, she looks waaaay better than she did 10 years ago. The long hair and all, they're magnet for guys! These past few days, Jila, like Eli, has been dispensing some good advice for me. Now it's very rare that Jila talks sense but when she does (hurhur) I listen to her. That's why I heart her.

Her undying love for Richard: Unbelievable.

Her undying love for her family: Even more unbelievable.

I know I can count on Jila to knock some sense into me. Very practical and grounded. That's Jila for you.

Ratna and I, we go waaay back. We were 6 when we were admitted to Primary 1. And never looked back since. She's that kinda person, how shall I put this... The kinda friend that you don't see for MONTHS but when you finally do, you can just pick up from where you left it. It's unexplainable. I know she's always there for me, somewhere. And FYI, I still keep Ratna's ultra sweet Birthday cards to me. The part where you scolded me because I taught you 'bad' things. Like how a baby is produced. Yeah... Way back in Primary 6 in the girls' toilet. I still remember Ratna's shocked expression on her face. Hurhur...

I must tell you that she is one of the strongest people I have ever seen. Ever. Her current difficult position has only made her stronger, I think. So much calm and serenity when I'm with her. I was very touched when I saw her whispering zikir in her brother's ears. Somewhere in me, some sort of emotional buttons were pushed and it was a moment I know I'll remember for a very long time. My prayers are with you and your family, luv.

My upper secondary partner. Somewhere along these years, there was one particular glitch. A bump on the road. But I know you want to put this behind you, and so do I. I know there are people who want to break up the tight circle all of us girls have built but we only prove them futile.

Oh and the love and care she showered upon her ageing grandmother is very admirable. Juggling school and grandmother is no mean feat, but she does it. Maz is a loving person and that can sometimes lead her to misjudge people. But I think she has learnt that not everyone is good, not everyone is trustworthy. And not everyone is worth loving. She has grown into a beautiful person inside and out. So Yayy!!! Generous, kind and thoughtful. I heart Maz.

Back in school, Ley was just one of those girls that I said Hi and Bye too. Another girl from school. It was, however, AMAZING how close we've gotten. Perhaps it's the same nasty predicament we both were at. Perhaps it's the comfort knowing that I'm not the only one hurting from the same thing. Perhaps it is because I can actually relate to someone who feels the same way as I do - the hurt from a love gone wrong.

And Ley is so smart, ok. She's a Science geek. And who says Science geek can't design?? Hell-o?? Look at my blogskin, can? Lawa kan nyaarr... Hurhur... And Ley is so in touch with the people in her surrounding that she can instantly tell if you're ok or not, just by looking at you once. Which is why she'll make a good teacher. Like how Ratna will too. Hang in, there sweetheart! Next time I call you Miss Leyana.

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I still have more Crescentians to mention. To give shout-outs to. I just want you to know, that each and everyone of you are special to me. I heart, heart, heart!!

Ok dah. I have a date now.

(Ley, stop screaming at me because I have a date! I'm sorry lah but you need to get your own harem, you know. Cannot share.)