Now Yan very clever, you know. When I complain about work or how I don't think I can go on further, he'd text me "Aza aza fighting!!" Macam paham, kan? Hurhur... But somehow, when coupled with the tight fist clenched ala Korean, it'll make things a little easier and more tolerable.

Aza aza fighting, if you don't already know, is a term the Koreans use for each other if they feel that the other person needs a moral booster. Dalam bahasa lain, it's like "Go for it!" or "Good luck!" or dalam kata Melayu, "Boleh nya lah!" or "Go jer, dok!" Hurhur... I realise there's no proper phrase for encouragement in Malay. Why is that so? Adakah kerana orang Melayu berasa segan-silu untuk memberi perangsang kepada orang lain? Cheybah.

Anyway, my face is breaking out. It's so bad, I feel dejected when I see angry red bumps everywhere. So disheartening. Why can't I have like, perfect skin like some people. Bangsa, you can't even see the pores and it's not oily at all and there's no need to buy concealer cos hey waddya know! They don't need a damn concealer! How is that possible! Why can't they just be normal and have oily skin and pimples whiteheads all. Wtf. Buat aku bingit jer!

Haha. Ok that was childish.

Green Day was undoubtedly the BEST gig I've ever been to. The energy was reverberating and the crowd - my word, the crowd! - was just crazy!!

I guess I'm a bit too old for free standing space kerana saya berdiri selama ampat jam eh tuan-tuan dan puan-puan, AMPAT JAM. Selepas ampat jam, lutut berasa longgar and kejong all at once, if you can imagine that. I felt like 75 years old. Nasib tak pakai heels uh. Lagi sikit nak tapi last-minute bought flats during lunch. Ended up buying 2 pairs. See, any excuse to go shoe-shopping.

For part of the show, I was standing behind this guy who is best described as HESBOK. Betul eh tak bedek. Badan dia is shape hesbok. Badan abang-abang kong punya ah. Abestu kan, Abg Badan Hesbok was JUMPING lah eh~ He got so excited, he was jumping along with the crowd and GUESS WHO'S FEET KENA STEPPED ON??? All 150kg of him on my right foot eh sials. Sakit giler babs punya uh kan aku dah ter-French my words. A bit of the skin on my right foot even came off. Dia pakai kasut besi ke aper ni! I couldn't even scream cos I was too shocked from the pain.

I guess the highlight for me was when one of our friends got called up on stage to sing Longview. Not one or 2 verses but the WHOLE DAMN SONG! He stood out from the crowd because of his green hair with the tail and his super skinny frame in a sleeveless t-shirt, very ala-ala mat Mesia nyer pattern. Hurhur. He looked like a natural on stage though, given his many many gigs playing the guitar.

Yan and I got super excited cos it's like one of us who was chosen. After the song, he jumped on the crowd to body-surf and they brought him all the way to the back and he almost fall flat on his face cos he was almost reaching the last row of the crowd. When he got down, it was smack infront of Yan and I and he hugged Yan macam dah lama tak nampak gitu. Then he was quivering a good 10 minutes after that cos still too excited, macam itu concert dia yang punya! Hurhur... And then, his 10 minutes of fame became overwhelming and it propelled him to instant fame and glamour eh! After the show, all the groupies started to surround him and took pictures all. Aku siap tengah tunggu orang keluarkan pena dan kertas mintak autograph jer. Nasib takder. So nonsense lah these people. Haha... It's just Zool.

Anyway, I am very very excited cos I'll be watching BSB soon (eh teenage-hood loves woi, how can I forget) and Paramore too! But Paramore, not free-standing. The crowd would be younger and confirm ada budak hingus nak skank ke mosh ke haper.

And then Yan bought tickets for me and himself for Between the Buried and Me. I have no idea who they are and I believe I have not heard a single song of theirs but like always, I am very open when it comes to music and will listen to whatever, even metal. Just don't give me techno eh please the tiu-tiu uwuk-uh uwuk-uh are just too much. Berbulu ah telinga saya, tuan.

Ratna told me that she's gonna try to memorise 1 song per day until BSB concert comes along. Her resolution made me nervous. I think I better buy their 7th album soon and try to memorise too. What better time to do that than now since I'm always staying late in the office anyway, right. Biar saya gunakan masa ini dengan afdhal cheyyydeba haha.

And this time round, I will wear heels cos 1) BSB concert CONFIRM ada ramai pompuan-pompuan gila yang terlalu mengikut perasaan apabila ternampak Nick Carter dan dalam keghairahan nya, CONFIRM akan lari ke hadapan dan memijak kaki saya. Jika kejadian itu berlaku, saya akan memijak balik. Menggunakan heel saya yang tajam itu. 2) Between the Buried and Me nye concert pula, CONFIRM ada ramai abang-abang Badan Hesbok yang juga akan terkinja-kinja kesukaan apabila ternampak idola favorit mereka dan juga memijak kaki saya dengan kasut besi nya. Apa? "Kalau pakai kasut besi, macam mana saya boleh pijak kaki mereka balik?" Takper, saya akan tendang ah... Apa tu nama? Shin mereka dengan tumit tinggi serta tajam saya itu. Shin cakap Melayu apa eh? Buku lali eh? Bukan kan? Tu ankle kan? Ok takper. Penat sey bebual Melayu.

One day, I'm gonna drop dead at my office desk. All while doing list of documents. I feel that I have heart palpitation, you know.

Anyway, my stomach has been giving me problems since Sunday night. It's like diarrhoea but not really diarrhoea. Like watery stool and alot of flatulence and vomitting so I guess that sounds like stomach flu.

And then, the doctor that I went to, is quite hot. I always get hot male doctors. They make my day hurhur. Anyway, Dr Goh was like "Hi good morning, how are you doing today?" I almost answered "Well I'm okay now..." Hurhur miang seh.

We did the routine question-answer thing between doctor and patient. I told him about my bowel movement and vomitting but left out the part about my gas cos it's embarrassing lah. Then he asked me to lie down while he did some routine check on my tummy and abdomen area. MAK DATOK dia picit sakit eh nyar!! Macam nak terbery seh! He did like 3-4 presses until I went like "Eh pain leh!" then he said "Ok, I give you this medicine for you vomitting, medicine for your diarrhoea and medicine for your GAS". To which I blurted out "Eh how you know I have gas eh~??" then I stopped and said "Oh yah of course, you're the doctor hurhurhur" and then the hot Dr Goh gave me this look that if I were to convert it to emoticon, it'll look like this -__-

Ah nice one, Awin. Very smooth. He must be thinking that not only this girl has alot of gas, she's full of hot air too. Merepek sak aku.

K lah. That's all. Oh oh and I bought tickets to Backstreet Boys concert. Yay yay I got chance to become groupie again!! I wonder if it's too late to go chasing them at their hotel all. Maybe now, their security won't be so bad cos all their fan-base are people aged between 24-32, I'm guessing? So confirm they won't have the time to go star-chasing all right? It's a good chance, then. Hurhur exciting nyer!!

Oh then I also have Paramore to go to. My MB sponsored my ticket. Macam mana aku tak sayang dia ni. Baik seh. My Paramore ticket is $108 siols. Aku rasa, confirm dia ada sikit perit untuk kasi aku duit tu haha. Abeh dia cute tau. Dia wrap duit tu in some coloured paper origami-style. Effort keper seh! Tak macam aku nyer FB. Kasi presen dengan plastic bag-plastic bag sekali eh sila eh Bedah~ But oh well, I guess it's the thought that counts bla bla. Nasib baik presen lawa.

K bye. Til next time.

I hate the feeling of unease when I'm out of the country yet the thought of work is constantly at the back of my head.

It's not fair.

Anyway, can't wait for my short getaway tomorrow. I'm not feeling like on top of the world exactly but this'll do.

When you think about it right, work will never finish.

I just joined Jacob Black's fan club.

I think, I must do something about this. Surely, this cannot be normal. So unbecoming.

I watched New Moon again, with um, Yan this time. Yan displayed his interest by sleeping soundly in the theatre. Two things - 1) a bit annoyed cos how is he gonna see Jacob's 8-pack as an inspiration otherwise! 2) secretly happy cos I can look at Jacob without feeling guilty that Yan might give me dirty looks. HURHUR.

And I just noticed a few new things where I like him in the movie. If you're planning to watch again, check out these scenes - where he was in Bella's room and noticed his dreamcatcher gift to her before turning away. That smug look! And where they were hugging in Bella's room. Shiikess!! She fit in so perfectly in his arms, it's so not fair! Honestly, if I were her, I would feel so much safer with him than with Edward-sekeremping.

Yan slept a good first part of the movie and only woke up when the wolves had some action. And somewhere in the movie, I vaguely remember him commenting about Jacob "Siak ah suara belum pecah!" Bedek jer suara belum pecah! Dah keper eh? Yan is so biased.

And there were 3 minahs sitting in front of us, so noisy! I wonder if Maz and I were noisy that day. I bet we were but erm, who cares. But but at least we know what's the story about. The minahs were damn clueless lor. Probably just watched NM cos they already watched all the movies in the cinema.

Ok I promise. Last entry about Jake. Enough! Eh tapi tadi kan time tengok Jake kan, badan tak panas sangat pasal Yan kat sebelah keper so kena berhati-hati sikit. Hurhur.

I wish I am in Italy now with Ley and Eli... Hi kawan-kawan dah jumpa Italian stallion ke belum?!! And Ley, Raoul may have cheated your feelings but go look for more! I'm sure there are some Paolos and Mazzeratis and Antonios somewhere! (Psst, jangan lupa members).

So I can only go for my leave in accordance to some people's plans.

Well, this just makes the decision so much easier, doesn't it?

Ok SIAPA sudah tengok New Moon?? WHO HAS??? Or rather, who has NOT??

And if you have, SIAPA AGREE YANG JACOB BLACK IS HOT???

Aku ni, miang seh. Macam every other week ada shiny new boy. Hurhur.

Padahal they don’t know I exist eh, which made me an irrevocable l.o.s.e.r. Hurhur, it’s okay, I can take a stab at myself.

So right, I went to watch NM with the Maz and the Ratna. They are Team Edward. I am, obviously, Team Jake. Because I like men who are not pasty white and badan sekeremping. Tak stim kan kalau badan sekeremping? Macam kalau sejuk-sejuk abeh hug tak load seh, buang masa jer HAHAHA. Ok sorry.

Anyway, Ratna was seated on my right and Maz on my left. I feel quite happy being in the middle. We watched the Twilight marathon – Twilight at 9.10 pm and New Moon at 11.40 pm. So while watching Twilight, Maz was making A LOT of noise oh-ing and ah-ing at Edward. Aper jer kan? Tapi takper, pasal ada Edward scenes also I made a lot of noise. I think for Edward right, he’s got certain angles yang hot dan certain angles yang tak hot sangat. Something a bit off, I can’t quite put a finger on it.

TAPI KAN ABANG JAKE IS LIKE OHH LALA BARACUDA!! I LIKE!!

When he first came on in NM with his long scraggly hair, I heard Maz and Ratna went like “Euwww apa sak Awin ini kau cakap hot, rambut bersserabai jer”. “Eh aku punya suka lah!! I like guys with long hair or botak that kinda what. If you notice, Gong Yoo and Simon Baker have longish hair. (So does Yan Hurhur ada jer nak promote eh). So anyway, the part when Jacob took off his shirt, Maz and I gasped macam tercekik tulang ikan ok can. Dua-dua terperanjat pasal ada badan hot 8-packs. Bangsa, kalau cuci baju pakai perut dia, confirm bersih. Ala-ala washboard.

Abeh kan, after he cut his hair and was standing in the rain, in all his glorious wetness, Maz and I couldn’t help but giggle non-stop, especially when we saw the other Quileute boys who like to walk around half-naked. We were busy choosing the ones we like rather than follow the storyline. Hurhur.

Abeh kan, aku tak senonoh seh… Right after seeing Jacob, my body got really hot, macam demam panas gitu! Pasal, I think I got really excited seeing him and my body temperature just rose. I quickly took Maz’s and Rat’s hands and place them on my forehead and neck, make sure they know I have a fever so in case kalau aku pengsan halfway, they can drag me home. Hurhur.

And the part where Bella was in the truck with him after her cliff-diving episode? And she was shivering in the truck and Jacob was driving and asked her if she was cold? "Well it's 98 degrees in here" and she scooted over? I couldn't help swearing at her! Cos she was nicely stuffing her face on his neck to keep warm! Biarchh!! Maz and I were so angry at her ok cos she's like, treating Abg Jake macam Plan B seh. Edward takder, sebok beronggeng dengan Jake. Edward timbul jer, Jake macam habis manis sepah dibuang cheyyybaa. I can't help but feel defensive for Jacob. He's so kesian. And so hot.

Ok Yan so amacam wanna catch New Moon with me? Then you can inspire to be abang-abang 8 packs macam Jac0b Black :)

(And when that happens, maybe I'll be Megan Fox HAHAHAHA ok bedek.)

Ok Yan, macam gini eh. 8-packs.

This is my new crush.