Sekiranya, aku memang LAGGING lah dalam update-meng-update nii...

I can't wait for the Raya outing with the rest of the Washingtons tomorrow!! Washingtons are: Awin, Eli, Jila, Ley, Ratna, Maz, Farena, Fidza, Ju, Suhana and Fazylah. We can't get a fuckin van in the end, so we'll go public tomorrow.

So since we're going public, all boyfriends, fiances, husbands and/or scandals are not allowed tomorrow. Just us, the girls. I've been craving for some girl action/talk without having to filter my mannerisms/words because they are boys and/or men around. I wanna act/talk dirty tomorrow. Hurhur... I think I will be quite upset if I find out there will be male(s) coming with us.

I'm going town alone later. To look for ways to spend my vouchers from Topshop and Marks & Spencer/John Little/Robinsons. $120.00 in all. My hands are itching to spend, spend, spend. In fact, I just spent on my hair during lunch break. I chopped some of them off. So now it's super-short, I'm sure my mum is gonna kill me when I get home. I'm still trying to figure out whether I look like a girl, a butch or a boy. But I'm loving it lah seyy!! Like macam so confident-(looking) and all... Sikit-sikit macam adik Fauziah Latiff. (Shut up, Ley. I know what you're thinking).

Makkau lapar nak mampos. I didn't eat dinner, breakfast and lunch. I've had half a green-bean bun (which was a bit basi, sial), Lay's potato chips and one-third of a salmon sandwich. Wahh I'm quite anorexic... Then puke everything out again at night. Haha tak lah bedek ajerr...

I've stopped puking out my food. I guess because I feel happier and feeling so much better about myself now. I'm not expecting anything, not even anticipating anything. I'm not letting myself get hurt again. I'm just relishing the awesome moments and believe him when he says that I'm worth it. That I'm really one in a million. (Kata Washingtons. Cheybah). I'm just taking it as it is. It's very tempting to just immerse myself in the delirious giddiness of love (or lust) but no way. Not anymore. I will have a good head on my shoulders. I mean, I'm sure I have always had a good head on my shoulders, but this time round, I'm more careful. I will have my heart guarded so heavily, you'd think it's a fortress. I just hope I don't go baring my feelings so easily this time. I'm not gonna do the "Here's my heart. Do whatever you want with it" shit anymore.

No way, Sirr..

Tomorrow, Washingtons. Love yous.