whimsical flights of fancy

Monday messed up thoughts

Monday, February 27, 2006

I was pleasantly surprised when I saw Jake Gyllenhaal's image on the movie screen for the screening of Jarhead. Yay, I thought, that's TWO Jakes in one week. This time round, he has crew cut hair and more mass on his body, not as skinny as seen in Brokeback Mountain. And he was in the US Marine uniform. Oh and he was a gun-totting hot bod there, as opposed to a lasso-twirling cowboy. I love him. The puppy eyes that's almost begging "Please love me". Haha... I especially love the mole on the left side of his upper lip. Very nice. Imagine kissing it. Okaaayyy moving on...

It's back to the specs now. I'm tired of wearing lenses. These past few days, my eyes are always tired. I don't know if it's the effect from Renu contact lens solution or is it just me. But I know for sure, my lenses have been long overdue. I've been wearing it for almost 2 months now, when I should have disposed it a month ago. This cannot BE! This is a very bad habit. I have alot of bad habits.

Like sleeping without removing my contact lenses. Or like sleeping without removing my make-up. I know... I can imagine some of you gasping in horror because imgaine all those harmful toxins breeding in my pores huh... Tsk tsk.

I finished reading Tuesdays with Morrie in 3.5 hours flat yesterday. And now I regret reading it so fast because I didn't have anything to read in the train this morning, and I just looked stupidly at other commuters. And then my eyes laid on this particular lady who puts on waayyy too much blusher. It's disturbing.

BLUSHER. It means just that. To blush your cheek, not to REDDEN them. It should be applied on the apple of your cheeks and maybe streaked upwards a bit. Not, the whole face. Which reminds me. The other time when I was out with Ley, Jila and Eli, we saw this girl who has blusher on her cheeks, nose and chin, which is practically ALL of her face. The only skin left untouched was her forehead. And even that, she covered her temples with blusher as well. I don't want to be mean, but tak style lah dik. The blusher masked her otherwise pretty face. I almost thought she has got a bad case of sunburn. Must have been a new pot of blusher. You know how we're like. We get so excited at something new that we go on a 'new-things' frenzy.

Just like when we have a new boyfriend. Wouldn't you want to spend more time with him, to discover him further and to know him better? I don't blame you. Because that's how we all are. Give it time.

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I wish that some people would take things with a pinch of salt. Life tastes better when it's not too salty, you know... There are things that should take precedence, but there are things that can be left behind. Sometimes, I stop thinking because I find thinking a chore. It gives me a sense of despair. It frustrates me. When I find myself being pulled into that labyrinth of desolation, I stop thinking and take a step back. And start all over again. This time, with a different approach. It is so unlike me to be sad all the time. But nowadays, that is all that I'm capable of doing.

the enigma was spotted at 13:11

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a gem in the rough

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Venue: Burger King Liat Towers, extreme right counter.

People involved: Jila, Awin and the guy behind the counter, Raffly.

Scenario:

Awin: Hi, can I have 2 boxes of cheesestix, to go please...

Raffly: Ok ma'am, is that all? (big grin)

Awin: Yes please (smiles)

Raffly: Ok (big grin)

(Raffly went to get our food while Awin turned to Jila)

Awin: Eh nama dia Raffly lah... Friendly eh dia.. Hurhur... (while proceeding to take a GEMS card to compliment him on his good service. For those in the dark, GEMS is Going the Extra Mile for good Service, or something like that. This campaign is to promote good service in Singapore. Macam betul jer...)

Raffly came back with our food.

Jila: Ni raffly-raffly berapa ni semua...?

*GASP*

I CANNOT believe she made fun of his name! Kesian budak tu nyarr... He gave us good service and smiled so wide somemore, and you had to make fun of his name. I'm not sure if Raffly heard what she'd said, but for his sake, I hope he didn't. Biadap sungGUH lah Jila ni...

the enigma was spotted at 18:53

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Gunung Dah Pecah Belakang, lah Ley

Isn't it funny?

That other people have much more use for my tag-board than I have for myself? But it's okay. I am generous, like that.

Isn't it funny?

When people tell me that they have issues with me, but I don't, for the life of me, have any issue with them? Because I don't harbour hard feelings.

Isn't it funny?

When they're all out to break you, but you only sit on your chair and try not to fall off because you are laughing so hard?

Anyway, all that's been going on at the right side of your computer screen, I have so many things to reply to them. So many times I just want to retort. But I figure out, I don't really need to justify myself. My friends and those who are important to me know the real deal. So really, if this is what some people deem as 'diplomatic open discussions', let it be.

(If you're a passive reader here, I leave it to you to make your own judgment).

Don't blame me if it doesn't turn out the way you want it to be. Yes, I whine and I cry, but I also forgive easily.

Because honey, I have better things to do.

Like going for my manicure (although they'll just end up looking like a bapok's) and going for a massage (yes, I like the feeling of a woman's hands kneading my body).

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Please watch Brokeback Mountain.

Two of my favourite boys got it going on with each other. I somehow find their kissing scenes erotic. I agree with Eli. They're very tastefully done. Although I can't help but laugh during the scene where they erm... Got all hot and frisky. Some zip-pulling and ripping of jeans and manly moans. You get the picture.

I want to catch it again. And this time, I want to lap up every single detail. Like the part where Jack said "it's nobody's business but ours".

Next up, Munich.

Or maybe Casanova.

Or perhaps The Constant Gardener.

Walk the Line?

I don't really care. I just like escapism.

the enigma was spotted at 18:23

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my lusty saturday night

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

After hanging out with 'em girls last Saturday, I went home and couldn't sleep. So I watched some tv. Well, SOME tv turned into ALOT of tv. The reason? Apolo Anton Ohno (say 'o-nio') *glares at Ley*

I want to digress. Read this. On MSN with Ley and Eli.

Awin: Hey, you girls know who Apolo Anton Ohno is? (because excited lah kan, I just discovered a new, hot male specimen and wonders if they've heard of him too.)

Ley: Ohno, I don't.

Aku sepak tau kau Ley.

Here, a picture of the stud-muffin himself.

He is one of the speed-skaters in the Torino Games 2006, representing USA. Eh~ Sila eh~ Macam orgasmic ok, when you watch him skate! I'm like WooHoo!! Haaawwtt~ Ok he's got this really tight ass. And he's wearing, get this, SPANDEX! I think guys should NEVER, EVER wear spandex, but he, this one, is an exception. I admit, I was trying to gauge if he's well-hung HAHAHA but the team USA costume is black so erm... Too bad HAHAHA.

Ok so this is how he looks when he's skating:

Just look at that! Gravity-defying 45-degree turn! I find this hot lah ok. And look at that misgut (say 'miss-goat') Misai + janggut = misgut. This word, my father taught me. It's that small tuft of hair under a man's lower lip. Oh wait, let me check mine. Ok I don't have. Hurhur...

He's born on 22 May 1982. World-class inline skater before he turned to ice speed-skating. Of Japanese descent. His unique first name Apolo was given to him by his father, who combined the Greek words Apo, meaning "away," and lo, meaning "look out". The combined meaning of Apolo is "look out, here he comes."

And he's very close to his father. Oh shit, men who are close to their fathers rank high is my list. There's just something very appealing about that. I guess maybe because I would want my son(s) to be close to his/their father. But he's not tall. But it's ok. Because he's got a hot bod and a handsome face and good thighs and he's got a misgut and I'm pretty sure he's well-hung HAHAHA

See! I went through all these trouble to find out more about him! I stayed up until 5 a.m. that Sunday morning just so that I can catch him in the Men's 1000m semifinal heats. And yes! He was qualified to go to the next round, although I don't know when that will be or if it's already over. But it's ok. I had my 20 mins of Apolo. And you should see the way he smiles. It's like MAKKAU ME TAK BOLEH ANGZT!! Hurhur (laughs wickedly at Ley and Eli).

So yeah... My flavour of the month is Apolo. Awin and Apolo Anton Ohno. Cheyybah~

the enigma was spotted at 13:41

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I feel good!

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

This morning, I noticed all the flowery dresses and frou-frou skirts the ladies wear to work, presumably going out with their respective partners after work to celebrate V-Day. I fumed to myself.

But this morning, I got a surprise. On my desk, lay a red heart balloon and a poem by E. E. Cummings's "I carry your heart with me". Bless the kind soul who gave me that. How awesomely sweet. I still don't know who. These things make me feel that I still believe.

Suffice to say, I am in a good mood now. All dandy and glowing. It helps that I put on my skirt and a nice top for work! Hurhur... Just in case. I erm... Had 2 invitations from some people who want to go out with me today.

Not even the foul words of some people could dampen my spirits.

When I think about it, Valentines should not only be restricted to celebrating with partners / boyfriends / husbands only. It can be shared among friends. I mean, back in Crescent, girls give girls flowers and chocolates and love-notes all the time! I still keep 'em treasures =)

So here's to all, Happy V-Day!

Spread the love, y'all.

the enigma was spotted at 09:21

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love schmove

Monday, February 13, 2006

Because I don't like disorder and chaos, I have, with much agitation, removed the bit in my 3 February 2006. So there you go! All joy and merry again.

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February 14. I hate the hype it carries. Eh please eh, I read an article in The Straits Times on Saturday and can't help but agree that in Singapore, love is dead for the rest of the 364 days. The fuss and the money spent on Valentines Day. And I'm not saying this because I don't have a date tomorrow. Truth be told, I don't give a rat's tail. And Ley agrees with me.

Love is overrated. I hate Love. I love to hate Love. Cupid can go and strike his arrow somewhere else for all I care. Preferably at that someone who lives at Simei St 1. I don't give a shit. Haha I sound like I'm in so much angst. But I'm not. I'm just sad that I've lost that heady, spine-tingling, toe-curling innocent feeling when I'm in love.

For those of you in love, well... Good for you. Although it's sometimes hard to distinguish the difference between love and infatuation, I hope you cherish the moments.

So tomorrow, I'm going to go home straight after work, no stopovers, thank you very much.

Tomorrow, I'm walking with my eyes blindfolded. If I see more than 3 couples with lovey-dovey smiles and stars in their eyes, I'm gonna pull out my short hair and scream all the way home.

Shit! Fallen by Lauren Wood is playing on radio now! I LOVE that song!

Fuck you, understand.

the enigma was spotted at 13:55

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confusion

With reference to my entry on 3 February 2006, I apologise if any warriors felt insulted. From the outset, it wasn't meant to be an insulting remark. It was a thought, and like all bimbos, I speak my thoughts. I don't have anything against Filipinos, or any other race for that matter. My aunt is a Filipino and I've asked her that question and she just laughed it off. Pity you can't take things with a pinch of salt. No need to take a stab on religion here, ok?

Let's all live in peace. I'm tired of uproars.

the enigma was spotted at 09:22

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Mohd. Ibrahim Bin Mohd. Rashid

Friday, February 10, 2006

May Allah bless his soul. Amin.

the enigma was spotted at 13:54

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understand understood

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

I'm very bloated, understand.

I've been stuffing my face with food, understand.

I've been having cravings, understand.

And PMS season is here, understand.

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I just found out that the 18th February date at Tanglin could be off. I'm so pissed off, understand. They said the seats are all filled up.

BUT WHO WOULD WANT TO GO THE REUNION MORE BADLY THAN US??? Sila eh~ Kita kan the life of the party.

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Please be strong ok? You know we're all a phonecall away. Heart you, Ratna & Jila.

the enigma was spotted at 19:07

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~onward with zeal and zest, forward we of CGS~

Monday, February 06, 2006

I stumbled out of my room this morning and as I walked past my mother, she said to me while pointing to the newspaper she was reading "Eh Win, tengok ni... Dulu dia kawan primary school ibu tau... Sekarang HAA KAU~ Dah jadi jutawan ahh... Tsk tsk..." While shaking her head and going tsk-tsking at a picture of a man in the front page. I just "Oh eh?" and went to the bathroom. And when I stepped out to the living room again, she said "Eh Win, kau tengok... Your Malay teacher, Cikgu Saifa in the papers. Got your school..." I was quite irritated lah right. Cos I was already late for work and she has to give me the full coverage of Berita Harian. I just mumbled something like I'm late. But after ironing my clothes, I thought I'd just do a quick read of our school article.

EH CGS IS HAVING OUR 50TH ANNIVERSARY LAH OK!!

And there at the top of the page is a picture of Cikgu Saifa (she hasn't changed a bit) and some of the nerd-looking girls with their Tablet PC. Action lah sekolah kita ni. But can I just add that we're the *ehem* first school with a Tablet PC *ehem* I can't help but feel this swelling pride in myself. Kenapa sekolah kita bagus ni. Terlalu advanced lah. I mean seriously, I'm not just having some boasting rights here. I'm telling you, we're pretty advanced in our learning. We received homeworks and do them via the PC (well the Juniors, at least). It's like foolscap paper-sized but it's a PC, youknowwhatImean... Then there's the Study Pavilion and Art Gallery (with my beloved ceramics still there ehem*) and Archives Lab. And we also adopt this PBL-Learning. Problem-Based Learning. This is waaay before I learnt PBL in Poly. So you see, it's pretty advanced. Come all schools, convert to Autonomous. Not only will you receive more subsidies from the Government, you also enjoy better activities and programmes. On top of the generous donations from rich parents. Not from mine anyway, hurhur... And of course, you leave the school with a renowned sense of confidence. Womanhood, for me, starts at CGS.

Oh and the hall is air-conditioned so you won't get sweaty and smelly girls in our school, except of course, after PE lessons. Hurhur...

I should get royalty fees like this. I'm praising my Alma Mater way too much. But I don't mind. Hurhur...

So anyway, I talked to Ley early in the morning on my way to work and told her the exciting news. The article said that the girls are to come in the school uniform or in something yellow and turquoise! Eh aku tak sabar lah babi!! Remember how I keep saying I want to walk in town and wear the school U one last time? Well yeah IT'S HAPPENING NOW. I'm gonna bring my uniform to school and change into them but Jila told me to wear from home so we can camwhore in the train on the way there. EH EXCITING KANN!!

So erm ok, because I was so excited, I called the school today and asked for details. The lady said it's from 9a.m-12p.m and there'll be some activities going on. She asked if I've received an invitation, I said No. She said it's by invitation only. So I turned on my charm: "Oh I see... Well you see, my friends and I would really love to come, you have no idea. There's about 10 of us. I read about this in the papers and it seems like we can just turn up without any invitation of sorts. We're really excited about this 50th anniversary, you see. We would like to see the time-capsule again and meet the teachers. In fact, just this morning, we're talking about what fun it would be to turn up in our old school uniform!" *giggles for sound effect*

She: Hmm well in that case, give me your name and address and I'll send you an invitation.

Me: Oh you're so helpful. Thank you very much! You know we appreciate this very much.

Ok Washingtons. You girls can thank me later. Ok?

Those tudungless kebrets (me inclusive), please eh. I expect nothing short of our yellows and turquoises. Don't forget your badges and name-tags! Maz, please wear clean socks. Eli, please IRON your uniform. Jila, please eh~ NO NEED to buy new blouse. Jila told me to wear my T-shirt inside my blouse AND MY GRAFITTI SHORTS UNDERNEATH MY SKIRTS. Eh gila keperr!! Graph-paper shorts aku dah buang lah sial. Hurhur... And those girls with tudungs, I suggest you girls get some yellow and turquoise ensemble. AMACAM?!?! Then maybe there'll be cameramen and journalists doing a cover on us. Hurhur bedek lah...

So make yourself free on the 18th February 2006, 9a.m-12p.m. You know the place.

Another excuse to meet and have one more good ol' time.

~the day when we must part, may Crescent remain in our hearts~

Aku ni feeling-feeling lah. Benci.

the enigma was spotted at 12:59

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sans make-up and naked brows

Friday, February 03, 2006

Anyway, something terrible happened to me this morning. I LEFT THE HOUSE WITHOUT MY MAKE-UP BAG LAH SIOL !!! How scary is that!! That means I have to go through the day without my lip balm and my gloss. The two most important items in my make-up bag. I can't stand having dry lips. I like my lips all moisturised and soft and oh-so-kissable because you never know who is gonna kiss you. HAHAHA bedek jer.

And the best part? I left the house with one eyebrow drawn and the other naked! Wtf lah right. I drew the right one first, and then the left. Then the left looked crooked to me, so i rubbed it off with moisturiser and left it to dry while I do my hair. And then I happily left my house without drawing the left one! Fikir style... Keluar romah jalan-jalan satu eyebrow botak keperrr...

I only remembered when I was in the train and thought I'd do it at work lah right BUT! That's when I realised I left my make-up bag at home. Probably sitting prettily on my shelf, waiting to be used.

So I was running and screaming around in the office asking for an eyebrow pencil but nobody brought theirs along lah! Eh girls, how can you NOT bring eyebrow pencils around lah... Besides lip balm and lipgloss, the next important things are your eyebrow pencils and mascara lah ok. Speaking of which, I didn't put on my mascara either!! But my colleague saw my display nick in msn - "I can't believe I left the house without my make-up bag! The horror!" - and she asked if I need anything so phew! I drew up that naked left brow, afterall. Scary, understand.

I must be getting old...

I'm not paying attention to how I look in public anymore :(

Last Friday was crazy. The Washingtons were crazy. I wonder if we would still be as crazy when we reach 24, 25, 26. Shit 24, 25 and 26 sound like old lah ok... I want to be 16 forever...

Anyway, wished Ratna and Nonie could come on Friday. Oh and umm Ju and Rohaya too. Eh I can't wait for our next together-gether camwhoring and girls night out lah sey!! Eh meh lah join the party. Ni hah gambar...

Maz & Eli setep kakak-kakak

Eli & Awin hungry because our food came late. So we drank chilli sauce and tomato ketchup.

Hello Kitty got mutilated because Fidza turned 23 and she got super excited. Lepas tu nangis. Aper jer. Hurhur...

Lawa lah korang. Tapi lagi lawa kalau aku ada kat dalam gambar ni gitu.

Ley (right) and Zuhaila, the woman who brings a hard-case bag with screwdrivers, knives, scissors, saws, pliers (cheybah) and other sharp and dangerous weapons. Other girls bring make-up bag. Zu brings weapon-bag. Other girls say 'loudspeaker'. Zu says 'Dolby Digital'. Other girls read Cleo. Zu reads erm... IT Today? Ok she's actually doing something that deals with IT. Don't ask me what. This blog was managed by my girlfriends. I only how to type my entries. Hurhur...

Have you seen a hot momma? Extreme right. Equally hot son was left at home. In fact, come to think of it. He's the ONLY man welcomed to our all-girls night out next time, ok?

Macam loving lah kita nii... Benci.

Awin the Mother Hen and her discharge. All admiring her erm... Mammary glands. Tip: To have perky and amazing-looking breasts, shower with cold water. Never ever with hot water. I've been doing that eversince I was a teenager, although I didn't know the scientific reason behind it then. Pandai lah aku ni. And never sleep on your stomach. Penyek lah nyarrr nanti.

Konon-konon strangers in a train. Eh please! Not convincing ok!

I like Maz's bag. I want also. I like this one. I don't know why. Probably because I don't look fat here hurhur...

My girls. I loves yous.

the enigma was spotted at 13:11

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