I hate the feeling of unease when I'm out of the country yet the thought of work is constantly at the back of my head.

It's not fair.

Anyway, can't wait for my short getaway tomorrow. I'm not feeling like on top of the world exactly but this'll do.

When you think about it right, work will never finish.

I just joined Jacob Black's fan club.

I think, I must do something about this. Surely, this cannot be normal. So unbecoming.

I watched New Moon again, with um, Yan this time. Yan displayed his interest by sleeping soundly in the theatre. Two things - 1) a bit annoyed cos how is he gonna see Jacob's 8-pack as an inspiration otherwise! 2) secretly happy cos I can look at Jacob without feeling guilty that Yan might give me dirty looks. HURHUR.

And I just noticed a few new things where I like him in the movie. If you're planning to watch again, check out these scenes - where he was in Bella's room and noticed his dreamcatcher gift to her before turning away. That smug look! And where they were hugging in Bella's room. Shiikess!! She fit in so perfectly in his arms, it's so not fair! Honestly, if I were her, I would feel so much safer with him than with Edward-sekeremping.

Yan slept a good first part of the movie and only woke up when the wolves had some action. And somewhere in the movie, I vaguely remember him commenting about Jacob "Siak ah suara belum pecah!" Bedek jer suara belum pecah! Dah keper eh? Yan is so biased.

And there were 3 minahs sitting in front of us, so noisy! I wonder if Maz and I were noisy that day. I bet we were but erm, who cares. But but at least we know what's the story about. The minahs were damn clueless lor. Probably just watched NM cos they already watched all the movies in the cinema.

Ok I promise. Last entry about Jake. Enough! Eh tapi tadi kan time tengok Jake kan, badan tak panas sangat pasal Yan kat sebelah keper so kena berhati-hati sikit. Hurhur.

I wish I am in Italy now with Ley and Eli... Hi kawan-kawan dah jumpa Italian stallion ke belum?!! And Ley, Raoul may have cheated your feelings but go look for more! I'm sure there are some Paolos and Mazzeratis and Antonios somewhere! (Psst, jangan lupa members).

So I can only go for my leave in accordance to some people's plans.

Well, this just makes the decision so much easier, doesn't it?

Ok SIAPA sudah tengok New Moon?? WHO HAS??? Or rather, who has NOT??

And if you have, SIAPA AGREE YANG JACOB BLACK IS HOT???

Aku ni, miang seh. Macam every other week ada shiny new boy. Hurhur.

Padahal they don’t know I exist eh, which made me an irrevocable l.o.s.e.r. Hurhur, it’s okay, I can take a stab at myself.

So right, I went to watch NM with the Maz and the Ratna. They are Team Edward. I am, obviously, Team Jake. Because I like men who are not pasty white and badan sekeremping. Tak stim kan kalau badan sekeremping? Macam kalau sejuk-sejuk abeh hug tak load seh, buang masa jer HAHAHA. Ok sorry.

Anyway, Ratna was seated on my right and Maz on my left. I feel quite happy being in the middle. We watched the Twilight marathon – Twilight at 9.10 pm and New Moon at 11.40 pm. So while watching Twilight, Maz was making A LOT of noise oh-ing and ah-ing at Edward. Aper jer kan? Tapi takper, pasal ada Edward scenes also I made a lot of noise. I think for Edward right, he’s got certain angles yang hot dan certain angles yang tak hot sangat. Something a bit off, I can’t quite put a finger on it.

TAPI KAN ABANG JAKE IS LIKE OHH LALA BARACUDA!! I LIKE!!

When he first came on in NM with his long scraggly hair, I heard Maz and Ratna went like “Euwww apa sak Awin ini kau cakap hot, rambut bersserabai jer”. “Eh aku punya suka lah!! I like guys with long hair or botak that kinda what. If you notice, Gong Yoo and Simon Baker have longish hair. (So does Yan Hurhur ada jer nak promote eh). So anyway, the part when Jacob took off his shirt, Maz and I gasped macam tercekik tulang ikan ok can. Dua-dua terperanjat pasal ada badan hot 8-packs. Bangsa, kalau cuci baju pakai perut dia, confirm bersih. Ala-ala washboard.

Abeh kan, after he cut his hair and was standing in the rain, in all his glorious wetness, Maz and I couldn’t help but giggle non-stop, especially when we saw the other Quileute boys who like to walk around half-naked. We were busy choosing the ones we like rather than follow the storyline. Hurhur.

Abeh kan, aku tak senonoh seh… Right after seeing Jacob, my body got really hot, macam demam panas gitu! Pasal, I think I got really excited seeing him and my body temperature just rose. I quickly took Maz’s and Rat’s hands and place them on my forehead and neck, make sure they know I have a fever so in case kalau aku pengsan halfway, they can drag me home. Hurhur.

And the part where Bella was in the truck with him after her cliff-diving episode? And she was shivering in the truck and Jacob was driving and asked her if she was cold? "Well it's 98 degrees in here" and she scooted over? I couldn't help swearing at her! Cos she was nicely stuffing her face on his neck to keep warm! Biarchh!! Maz and I were so angry at her ok cos she's like, treating Abg Jake macam Plan B seh. Edward takder, sebok beronggeng dengan Jake. Edward timbul jer, Jake macam habis manis sepah dibuang cheyyybaa. I can't help but feel defensive for Jacob. He's so kesian. And so hot.

Ok Yan so amacam wanna catch New Moon with me? Then you can inspire to be abang-abang 8 packs macam Jac0b Black :)

(And when that happens, maybe I'll be Megan Fox HAHAHAHA ok bedek.)

Ok Yan, macam gini eh. 8-packs.