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amaze me, why don't you?

Wednesday, November 30, 2005


Yeah why don't you? Go on, spring me some surprises.
No particular person or thing or occasion here. 'You' here refers to just about anything. Just a string of events that have left me dumbfounded, lost, confused and irritated.
(And it doesn't help that Class 95 is playing songs that are bloody heart-wrenching now.)
Someone remarked something to me yesterday. Unintentionally (or not) I'm sure. But it left some sort of scar somehow. It's like how I felt 6 years ago - ugly, unworthy and unwomanly. Until you know... That certain someone saw me beyond all that.
I mean, I'm very aware of my surroundings, my friends and who I hang out with. But to have someone just go like "Asal kawan kau lawa-lawa, kau macam gini ni?" It's like HOO-KAAAYY... Haha. Sur-PRISE!!! Thanks ahh...
But you know what, after all the initial self-hatred and a bit of self-kicking, I stand again and tell myself "Yeah but so what? We're all gonna grow old and wrinkle one day anyway. I bet all those gorgeous people can't even hold a conversation half as good as I do." And also after a few verbal slaps from friends, I got over that. I move on. I always do.
Watch out World! Here comes I!
Haha.
Anyway, yesterday was awesome. A trip to Hollywood Secrets and my fingernails are so Frenchy LaLa, I can't stop admiring them! I still find it hard to believe sometimes that I used to be an avid nail-biter. Bite until they bleed sometimes. Haha... Macam best tau gigit kuku. So therapeutic. It calms me down.
Did I tell you? Rainy days are the best. Rainy days and hangin out with your favourite people are even better.
Thank you, you.



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