Hurhur, am I witty or what, my subject title.

I'm so angry and so upset, I could kill the next person who gets on my case.

The plan was to go backpacking with my cousins and their friends in Vietnam for 5 days. How cool and exciting is that right? I know. I've been wanting to backpack to Vietnam for the longest time lah... I don't know why. I just wanna. And it must be Vietnam. Not other cities. Vietnam first. A guy friend backpacked there alone last year and I was so awed. I would follow him if I could but that would be so wrong lor.

So anyway, you can probably guess my excitement when I discovered that my cousins are backpacking to Vietnam. Shireen is gonna go to Thailand, then Cambodia (another place I wanna go) and last leg of the backpacking trip is going to be Vietnam. So the plan is me, my 2 cousins and a couple of other people are joining Shireen and her friends at Ho Chi Minh.

There would be 8 of us and it would so fun! BUT. This is where I stop talking about fun and start crying in the girls' toilet just now.

There is a full day hearing on the 19th and I asked my FB if I could go on leave. And she said I have to check with my colleague cos they would need someone to be around for the hearing. So I checked with this colleague and she said she's taking leave on 18th and 19th May.

I WANTED TO SCREAM! She said it's her kids exam week and she need to be at home to coach them. Ok I know I have no right to judge but look, last minute revision can help meh. And not say I wanna be mean but right, her kids are gonna do badly/not-so-well anyway so why the hell does she bother. This is a very nasty remark from me, I know. But I've heard her complained enough on how bad her kids' school work are and how they get less than average marks on their test etc so is it any surprise why I am so bitter about this? Because she's gonna take leave and supposedly coach her kids but they're gonna do badly anyway, you get my drift? Then what's the point!

And you know what pisses me off the most? She asked me why I'm asking her about the leave so I told her that there's a full-day hearing on the 19th for this matter that both our bosses are on. And you know her reply?? "Huh then why you ask me? I'm not involved in [clients' name] what..." EH KNN not involved kepala waklu lah! Dengan sarden nyer dia kata dia tak involved! Tu yang buat darah aku UP banyak ni...

I've been doing alot for this matter. I've co-ordinated some project stuff that she doesn't even help with the co-ordination and this is taking into account that she's an executive, you know. I've been working until I fall sick for a week and couldn't take MC and I don't even deserve 3 stupid days? Wtf is this. I sell my soul to work lah fuck, understand.

And this rubbish about how single people should give way to married-with-kids colleagues? Utter rubbish. Like as if I don't have a family of my own; as if I don't have agendas of my own. It really is very frustrating.

You don't know how badly I wanna go on this trip. It's painful.

I'm into my third book of the oh-so-popular Stephanie Meyer's 4-part series vampire extravaganza.

And I must say this - I'm in love.

With a vampire.

And a werewolf.

Both, at once.

Hurhur. I know right?

But you see. The third book was the one that got me all excited. At first I thought Edward (Mr. Vampire) is like, the role model for all boyfriends in the whole wide world. In fact, I tell myself, if vampires really exist, can the vampires please come forward and make me one.

But Jacob Black (Mr. Werewolf) was so hot and so charming and so sweet in the third book that I was all like hey, what do we have here! I'm ashamed to say that I teared a few times in the train while reading the book. And then I had to stop and blink a few times and pretend that there is something in my eye.

And then, I was torn because I couldn't make up my mind who would I choose if I were Bella (the human love interest of Mr. Vampire and Mr. Werewolf).

Mr. Werewolf is hot ok! He is sweet and although he's not as suave and charming as Mr. Vampire, he has this certain something about him. He has this effect on me, like you know... Toe-curling. Hurhur. I am so gushing like a teenager right, I know!

This is ridiculous. First, it's all those Korean boys. Then, it's vampires and werewolves. My real like must suck so much that I like being lost in reel life.

I didn't realise it has been more than a month since I last blogged. I miss blogging. I wish I could blog like, every day.

Anyway, I have an idiot for a brother. He's so bloody annoying. For example, he doesn't know how to switch off the lights before leaving for work. Or close the house windows when it rained. He will leave for work in the morning and 5 mins later, walked back into the house because he forgot his bike keys / helmet / cash card / testicles. And walked into the house and into his room WITH his shoes on! Bengap ke aper siak. Kan orang tua-tua cakap kalau kasut bawak jalan dalam rumah tak masuk rezeki ke haper lah.

And my mum macam maid tau, dah cucikan baju mereka, lipatkan all, then he doesn't even know how to bring them back in. And he will choose his shirt from that same pile of clothes and leave the rest outside.

Basically, dia tak tau jaga rumah. As in, he doesn't know how to see if there's anything about in the house that needs clearing sikit-sikit ke... You know, simple things like switching off the lights before leaving the room. Tu basic siak. BASIC.

Anyway, CONGRATULATIONS SUSHI!! Cheybah cheybah cheybok dah kahwin seh! So many friends got married! So many! Am I stressed? No. Am I jealous? Not really. If I am, only because I want to be make-up and wear kahwin clothes and not the marriage itself hurhur. Is my biological clock ticking? Don't think so. I only like nice-smelling babies and don't want to clean up after them. So then, why the hell do I feel rimas? I think it's because everyone else around me is either married, getting married or planning for marriage.

Like, is there something wrong with me?? I'd like to think I'm fine because my close girlfriends don't seem like they're in a hurry either. A poll with Maz and Ratna showed that they too are liking the way things are now - unmarried, focus on work/studies etc. That's not saying that we are not interested in one day starting a family, but you know... Not just yet. Maybe I should get some things in my life straighten out first. Seram seh, kahwin-kahwin. It's so kakak-kakak stuff. Hurhur...