whimsical flights of fancy

my Friday

Friday, April 29, 2005

Steady lah!

It's Friday. I got through the week. Gearing up for the weekend!!

Went out with them girls to a Loreal sale yesterday at Winsland House. Spend almost $20 on cosmetics. Very very the love... My hands were so itchy, I kept throwing blushes, eyeshadows and glosses in the plastic bag. And then discarding them when I realised I can't afford everything.

I cant f***in believe Constantine is out. Absolutely no joy in watching AI ANYMORE!! Because Constantine the Pout is gone!! I didn't watch this week's episode but Eli said he was quite lousy on Wednesday. Regardless, he's an eye-candy.

All my faves in reality tv are gone.

From the Apprentice: Andy the Lips, Maria the Clothes, Raj the Bowtie.

American Idol: Constantine the Pout, Nadia the Hair I and Anwar the Hair II.

The Amazing Race: Lynn and Alex "sugar-my-fingernails-broke-when-I'm-doing-the-detour" the Queers.

Survivor Palau: Coby the other sole Queer and Angie the Tattoo.

I love gay males in reality tv. They lighten up the mood with their snapping fingers and expressive remarks. Definitely a sprinkle of humour.

"Stephanie is sooo bitchyyy..."

"Amber and Rob are sooo mean. We'll scratch their eyes out"

"Hellooo... This IS a game. Excuse my strategy"

and so on and so forth. Ho ho ho.....

Here's to a great weekend. Go crazy.

the enigma was spotted at 09:34

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my Blondie moment

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

It's lunch time but I'm right here typing away.

Anyway, had a Blondie Moment last week. I actually tasted how it'd be like to be a blondie.

I shampooed my hair, had my shower and applied hair conditioner. While waiting for the conditioner to work its magic, I brushed my teeth and scrubbed my face. Then I stepped out of the bathroom and got ready for bed.

So there I was on my bed, lounging around and getting ready to sleep when I casually touched my hair.

Sounds pretty normal right?

Except I did not wash off my conditioner.

(!!)

I smelled my fingers and true enough - Smooth Texture salon conditioner. Had to get up at 1a.m. and do the necessaries.

Never had my Blondie Moment been so memorable.

I wonder if I would lapse to a Blondie Moment again. It feels great. I'm kinda getting tired of being smart all the time.

Hah.

the enigma was spotted at 13:31

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body (not) beautiful

Monday, April 25, 2005

I can’t believe Anwar’s out of AI!!!
I’m gonna miss him but I kinda have the feeling that he’s gonna be voted out soon. Oh well… Tough.
My brother’s into bodybuilding now. What THE lah sey… It’s his new fad. I think my brother is Jack of all trades but master of none. That’s what he is. He has gotten his hands on chess, badminton, silat, entrepreneurship, soccer and now, bodybuilding.
Imagine my shock when I stepped out of my room last night at 1 a.m. to find him watching videos of bodybuilding competition!! The horror the horror. So we have all these men with oily, bulky and disfigured bodies. The kind ketak-ketak like that. Badan satu-satu ‘ketak-ketuk-ketak-ketuk’ – that’s what Yan call them.
Honestly speaking, it’s such a turn-off lah sey… Please eh… I don’t see how bodies like that can ever be beautiful. EVER. No way Josè. My brother informed me that these men in the competition went without food for 3 days and they only drank like, less than half a cup of water everyday.
This is because when they lack hydration, it makes their skin dry, hence tauter. And when you have taut skin, all the more your muscles and tendons and veins will be obvious. And no food – to prevent the stomach from getting fat. He also said that Why do they resort themselves to this kind of entertainment, I don’t know.
And so the video competition caught my attention and I watched along with him and my dad. I was cringing with discomfort every time the contestants flex their muscles and strut their stuffs. Satu-satu macam stud muffin eh sila… I think they can suffocate me with their little toe. They’re THAT big, I tell you. Aku keGELIan lah sey…
And not only that. My brother finished up all my shaving cream, hair removal cream and wax. To get rid of his hair leg. (!!)
I told him “Eh kau dah macam tak jantan sak takder bulu kaki… Dah hilang kejantanan kau”. Ho ho ho… So now his legs and smoother and silkier than mine.

"Eh dik... Tak macho lah sey..."

the enigma was spotted at 17:25

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gimme back my tastebuds

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

My tastebuds are getting better. I can taste moments of saltiness, sweetness, bitterness, sourness and goodness.

I'm quite happy.

I love 'We could be together' by Debbie Gibson. My colleague and I hum to this song whenever they play it on radio. In fact, I love Debbie Gibson. Her 'Lost in Your Eyes' also I love... I swear I should actually be born in the 1970s. I'd be a disco queen.

There hasn't been much work this week. I'm quite workless. I feel redundant.

I'm beginning to question myself, what else can I do in my lifetime. I wanna do something. Change something in any way. Short of going to jail and giving other people hell, I'm still thinking of what else to do.

Maybe I'll fly to the Moon. How's that for a change.

the enigma was spotted at 18:34

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glued hair

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

My nostrils hair is stucked together.

Because the flu is still here and when the mucus dry up, my nostrils hair got stucked together. It's painful, I tell you. Ok why am I discussing this.

I find myself getting happy when I can taste even a bit of my food. Like the nuggets from BK just now was quite salty so I could taste the saltiness, and I feel joyous like that. It's quite sad lah sey...

Watsons is gonna be rich because I'm purchasing quite a number of tissue packets from them. If I collect all my mucus, I could probably sell them off as glue. I'd get quite a profit from it. Ok I gotta stop talking about my bits.

"Dip me in chocolate and call me Dessert".

Saw this slogan on a moving van specialising in desserts. I love it.

I'm gonna kill Raihana for divulging the winner of The Apprentice II. There's no joy and meaning watching it already. You killed my only TV drama on Sundays, besides the Hindi film on Bombay Talkies. Simply, SIMPLY no joy on Sundays.

Note to Raihana: I forgot to include you in the Sha Na Nas. LeyaNa, DayaNa, RatNa, RaihaNa and FareNa. Sha Na Nas.

And Raihana, Kevin is NOT a joy to watch. Nobody is a joy to watch anymore in The Apprentice. Except maybe that woman who looks like Princess Diana-whats-her-name...

the enigma was spotted at 18:20

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flu is THE bugger

Monday, April 18, 2005

Damn flu made all my food tasteless.

My fever's gone down but the flu's still there, making eating a long torturous chore because I'm just going through the motion of chewing and swallowing without tasting. I promise I won't take my senses for granted again. Going a bit deaf too cos the flu somehow covers the hearing passage or something. Will be doing the Ratna for a bit here. Hehe...

Had a great weekend with that boy. Watched movies and basically hang-out and talk. I love those moments. I'm just glad I have someone sincere in the relationship and give and take as it is, without expecting anything back in return. I pity girls whose boyfriends expect something back in return, in exchange of their showers of gifts. If you can't be sincere, then don't give. A mantra I lived by all this while, which is why I never donate if I feel like I'm forced to. The school kids with the stickers on Flag Day can make do with $1 less.

To Huda: I'm sure your mum going away is a blessing. Just wait and see. He has plans for us.

My cousin named her daughter Qistina. Damn. I've always loved that name. I like Qistin, not Qistina cos I don't like my daughters to have a 'Na' at the back of their names cos it makes it sound so typically Malay. Apologies to RatNa, DayaNa, LeyaNa and all the Sha Na Nas. Ho ho ho...

Anyway, the makcik kedai Ella has been keeping her mouth shut nowadays. I think she probably got some feedback from customers about her rudeness, or she got a once-over from her husband. Terus bisu sey itu makcik. Ho ho ho...

Andy the Lips was fired. Raj the Bowtie, Maria the Clothes and Andy the Lips are all gone. Who the HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO WATCH OUT FOR IN THE APPRENTICE NOW??

Trump THE Hair?? Shitty the bang the bang. I hate them Jennifer and Sandy. BITCHes~

Gotta go catch my nose now. It's runny.

the enigma was spotted at 14:10

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a-tissue!

Thursday, April 14, 2005

AaarRRghhh..!!

Stupid flu attack. Been sharing my flu germs around in the office. Would probably take MC later. Or tomorrow.

I watched Miss Congeniality II last evening with that girl Huda. It would have been a great show if only the stupid girl beside me would just behave. Her handphone rang like... twice and she didn't even know how to turn it to silent mode after the first time. I gave her my Look. She nonchalantly acted like it's okay. Stupid girl.

Then we headed home. Oh and nice hair Huda. In fact, if I look hard enough, yours probably doesn't look much like mine. Hehe...

I dreamt I went shopping with Yan.

Note to Yan: It's time to let our cards do some exercise.

the enigma was spotted at 09:36

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noise

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Haven't you heard?

Empty barrels make the most noise.

And right now, it seems like the empty barrels' favourite hang-out place is my space.

It's flattering to know that some people visit my space religiously just so they could shit out their crap here.

No wonder they've been to practically all the schools in Singapore without even graduating with a single qualification. Ho ho ho...

Just for the record, their allegations do not carry any weight.

I am not bothered even a bit. Amused by its stupidity, yes. Bothered, hell no.

So I say, keep it coming.

the enigma was spotted at 13:11

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Hippity Hippity Hop

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

My heart's jumping with joy.

I received a call from someone unexpected.

It was brief and innocent but it was appreciated and wonderful.

Now I believe, there is hope still.

Yeah, there is.

Yay...

Call me again. Call me again. Call me again.

the enigma was spotted at 18:50

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fallen from Grace

Monday, April 11, 2005

My cousin just gave birth.

It wasn't your typical childbirth in the hospital with epidural and your husband by your side kinda thing.

Suffice to say, I was scared shitless when I heard the news. I grew up a good few years after that.

When situations like this happen, it's easy to point fingers at the distraught parents, or at the wayward teenager, or even at the damn condom that broke. But Life's more than just that. I'm just happy us Muslims are born with patience and forgiveness. If He is forgiving, why not us mortals right?

The baby was sooo cute, I tell you. Make me wanna have one of my own. But that can wait. I have more important stuffs to deal with right now.

Like my girl Maria got fired by Trump. Shitty debang-debang. No more Chi chi New York as eye candy. Already Raj the bow-tie was fired. Who the hell am I suppose to look at now?? Never mind. At least there's still I'm-THE-national-debating-champion-I don't talk-much-I-listen-more-Harvard Andy. Have you noticed his lips?

Another important stuff I'm still learning to deal with right now is to be a better person. It's cliche I know but really... I gotta do this.

I'm an angry person. I get angry easily, but I don't let things go and make peace just as easily. Because of this, I hurt my loved ones. I lashed out this acid tongue a little too liberally sometimes. Consequences? To hell with it. My opinionated, angry mind rules first. And I hate it.

Does an angry person makes a sensitive one? You bet. I'm so f***in complicated, even I can't figure myself out sometimes. And all this is because of PMS. I'm not letting PMS take all the blame, but it IS to be accounted for. Like when I'm angry and mentally-dysfunctional. PMS just makes it worst, you know...

Many things I've said and done, I wish I can take them all back. Something monumental happened and it woke me up. I can't be going on behaving the way I did. Too much anger, too many feelings hurt, too many mistakes. Something's gotta give. And it's my anger and my ego. Shoo shoo go away Anger and Ego.

Please Allah, make me a better person. I realised how little time I'm left with in this world and I don't want to die an angry woman. Let me have the strength to let things go and not dwell on it but if I must get angry, then let me be angry with grace. And then forget and forgive.

It is already April, but I should have made this my new-year resolution. I hope I am not too late. I hope, with all my might, that he gives me a chance.

On a lighter note, I watched Samara with that boy on Saturday. Scared shitless. But I won't really recommend it. It's hokay-scary-in-true-Hollywood-fashion.

And last week, kinda had a blast at the chalet. When my queens and my girls came, I felt better than I had earlier that day. We borrowed someone's speaker, shut all doors and drew the curtains, and we danced like mad. We, meaning us Queens and Suhana. But shy Suhana didn't dance so it was just us Queens. And Jila said, "Ni lah budak-budak tak pergi clubbing eh... Joget dalam bilik". It was funny when said in jest like that.

It's true. Us 3 look oh-so-happening but we're actually not. Among us 3, we've only visited Cheeky Monkeys and dbl-o once each time. Eli hated Cheeky Monkeys and dbl-o was hokay for me. I'd love for another get-together with them queens and the girls. It'd be a riot I tell you. And this time, we'll bring our own radio/speakers.

And we're camera whores, I tell you. At least I know the Queens are. When left by ourselves, we're quite contented snapping pictures of yes... Ourselves. Modesty at its best.

And so, today is a new day, a new week.

I must change.

the enigma was spotted at 13:05

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Rapunzel, Rapunzel... I am not.

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

I chopped off my tresses on Saturday.

Not that they were long. I was in the mood to change my hair.

So there I was sitting at Jantzen sipping free Chinese tea and having my hair washed. I don't usually go there but for my length, I didn't think it was worth going to Reds. The Ah Moy doing my hair was in a snipping frenzy. She looked absolutely radiant seeing my hair flying all over the floor.

And before I knew it, my hair is short. SHORT, I tell you. In a way, I've always wanted hair this short. Not that the hair way back in Crescent was not short enough. But this length takes the cake.

I love it.

So now I look like a butch in Crescent. Except now I have boobs and all. And just so people don't mistake me for one, I've been going to work with blusher painted on my face. How nice...

I can't wait for tomorrow.

the enigma was spotted at 13:13

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an entry about nothing

Monday, April 04, 2005

I have been missing, I know.

That's because I've been busy at work and the only way for me to update is via the office computer.

Anyway, had a great weekend. Basically I spent it with that boy. We ate at the seafood place at Bukit Gombak yesterday cos we both were craving for seafood. Stuffed ourselves silly with ikan bakar (what DO you call ikan bakar in Malay? Burnt fish? Roasted fish?), oyster kailan, sotong yew char kuey and hotplate beancurd. And ginger milk and orange juice. Ho ho ho...

Then on Saturday, we ate Pizza Hut at Clementi, after buying Yan's books.

(Ok right now, I just feel like telling everyone how in love I am with Yan. It's not boasting, mind you... But just a lavish show of expression. Hehe... For some of you, you might have experienced a warm, fuzzy kinda feeling when you're with someone. I'm feeling it right now. Yes at work.)

For one reason or another, I like to refer to all waitresses that we come across at eating places as Yan's girlfriend. It'll be like:

Awin: Yan... Eh call your girlfriend for the bill.

Yan: Ok. Girlfriend! Bill please...

Awin: What the.

Anyway, since I'm feeling alot of love for my fellow homo sapiens, let's spread it.

To Eli, Jila, Ratna, Maz, Huda, Dayana and Ley: I love!!

To my family: I love!! (I doubt they'll see this, but they know)

To Yan: I Love!! @>;---

the enigma was spotted at 09:18

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